Movies and what they say about me...

I've been watching a lot of movies for the past couple of weeks.  I was doing good with watching less movies and staying active, until about 2 weeks ago when I apparently irritated my lower back again.  Dr.'s orders included taking a steroid regimen pack, pain killers, and muscle relaxers, and also lots of rest.  And let's not forget a hot pad.  Boy oh boy do I love hot pads.  Because of this forced relaxation and loss of activity, I have been watching a lot of movies at my place.  I've also been in a bit of a quandary recently in regards to my thoughts and emotions.  My thoughts have been all over the place, and well, my emotions, I'm just not used to having them I suppose.  :p

Rather than try and explain my emotions over the last couple of weeks, here is a list of the movies that I've chosen to watch, in no particular order.  Some several times.  Don't judge me.

Lars & The Real Girl
One Week
Amelie
500 Days of Summer
Crazy Stupid Love
Unforgiven
Lawless
Skyfall
Feris Bueller's Day Off
Couples Retreat
The Guardian
True Grit
White Irish Drinkers
A Night At the Roxbury
Failure To Launch
Raising Arizona
The Flowers of War
Safety Not Guaranteed

Also, so far dating has been kind of a headache.  I've met some really nice girls, and I've met a few slutty girls.  All in all so far, it is kind of exhausting.  With online dating, you sort of have to cast out a really big net, so to speak and then hope for the best.  Some days I'll end up talking to a whole bunch of girls, and some days perhaps one or two.  Some that I feel like I connect with on some levels, but then there just isn't a spark or any real chemistry there in person.  I find myself comparing most of these girls to a certain someone, and they just don't seem to measure up.

Unfortunately, that certain someone isn't available and I can't exactly wait around and hope for the best either.  It's time to be realistic and make myself get out there.  I keep hoping that perhaps I'll just meet someone who will be great on a whole new level and that will make me forget.  Help me forget.  Whichever way you want to look at it.  It sucks to be so completely enamored by someone and not have it reciprocated.  I think that everybody ends up loving someone at some point of their life that is just not the right person.  Or perhaps just not the right time.  I'd like to think that I'm worth wanting on some levels, even though I am far from perfect.  I have a lot to offer, and feel like I am finally ready to move on with my life.  I am ready to find someone again.  I am ready to be loved and love in return.  Hopefully she's still out there, and maybe, just maybe, there is a chance she is looking too.