Honesty

Anyone who knows me well, can tell you this truth about me.  I am honest.  I learned pretty early on in life that I need to be honest.  Not just because I am a very terrible liar, but also because I hate the way I feel when I have lied.  No joke.  I am probably one of the worst liars on the face of this planet.  You can see a lie as plain as the giant nose on my face. 

Another truth, is that I have a lot of people in my life who I consider amazing friends.  Friends who I would seriously do anything for.  Friends who have helped me through some of the toughest times in my life.  Friends who have taken me into their homes when I had no where else to go.  Friends who have taught me how to be a true friend, a better person, and a how to be a man in general.  Most of my friends are people that I would consider family and are welcome in my home anytime. 

I also have another quality, and this one seems to backfire on me quite a bit.  It is probably going to be my undoing as well.  Strangely enough, it is a quality that I don't ever want to lose.  I am a generous person by nature.  I also tend to only see the good side of people, and perhaps trust when I shouldn't.  This particular trait tends to encourage the wrong kind of people to take advantage.  In the past,  I have been a lot more naive and allowed people to do so.  Unfortunately, I had to learn the hard way that some people want don't belong in my life.  I've had to let go of some of my closest friends.  Because of this, I am a lot more apprehensive now.  I'm definitely a lot more guarded. 

The fact of the matter is, if I feel that you are a genuine friend, you will know it.  There is no ulterior motive on my behalf.  I am not trying to gain anything in return.  I genuinely love to see my friends happy.  If they have a need and I am able to fill that need, I will do it in a heartbeat.  If that is a flaw, then I am flawed.

I also tend to forgive and move on pretty quickly too.  Read into that as you'd like.  This only works to an extent though.  Once I get past a certain point though, I am done and move on.  I'm not so sure if this is a flaw or not, but it is who I am, nonetheless. 

The point is, I know what kind of person I want to be.  Certain things and actions feel right, and I'm sure there's a reason for that.  I may not be perfect, and I'm sure that to a lot of you, I am fully flawed.  We all have room for improvement.  How many of us are actually doing anything about it?  Are you the kind of person at then end of the day that you are proud to be?  What will those closest to you say when you're gone?  That could be tomorrow.   It could also be 60 years from now.  In the end, what is really important?  What really matters?  What will you leave behind when you're gone?  What will be your legacy?  Is anyone even going to miss you when you're gone?